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    XIU ♥ CONNEXION      

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i miss you
Thursday, September 04, 2008 @ 1:46 AM

when u first left me i didnt know wad to say




my favourite uncle passed away last sunday.

i was about to meet koon and on my way heading to his place when mom called and told me tt uncle had fainted. i crossed my fingers and prayed tt uncle would be alright.

after the second call i knew tt something was not right. i could heard her weeping with her perpetual sadness and her unclear voice trying to express something to me.

he has passed away. i tried to hold back my tears as much as possible bcos i knew there were many ppl in the bus at that moment. next i boarded down the bus without knowing exactly where am i and got into the cab heading to tan tock seng hospital immediately

everyone was crying so bitterly when he was lying flat on the bed with his stopping heartbeat. he never spoke again. at the same time, i was wondering if uncle was floating and looking at us when we were crying and he was lying on the bed.

uncle was playing golf and scoring the third holes when his legs started to shake vigorously and he shuddered. Next, he fainted.

it never hit me why he'll leave us so soon without leaving us a msg or smth. the medical report came out tt he had suffered from a heart attack, that is inherited from my grandfather. i dont believe it as i had never heard him suffering from a heart failure before. but this might be his first severe heart failure disease and it might be true.

Thinking back, uncle dotes me the most and he cares for everyone. I can say tt all of us including my cousins really love him. My last interaction with him was during months ago and i cant remember distinctly. he's such a cracker to everyone else and a fun to be with. when we went over to his place and stayed for a few nights he would leave his room for us and slept in the living room instead. also watched golf and soccer match with him whenever i went to visit him. I always wanted him to teach me golf when i grow up.

Now he's gone. I can never get to watch soccer with him and learn golf from him again. His room left with so many trophies and medals untouched. i really hope i can keep all his trophies and medals with me but i know i cant bcos mom and the rest would not allow me to.

my tears would threaten to fall whenever i think the body lying inside the coffin is uncle. everyone was so devastated and the atmosphere was so down in the funeral. grandpa was the most piteous person i guess. both of them always rely on each other when he was there. and now he needs to accept the fact tt his son'll not b with him from now on.

sis wanted to lend grandpa a hand with walking when he said something like this
"u dont have to help me at all. my son has gone earlier than me and i still havent died yet."

it was the saddest thing to hear smth like this. I didnt cry when his body was going to be cremated. I didnt cry at all. Maybe i was tired of crying i guess. Hope he is in a better place.

I miss him.




Drifted away +0316+